kopi + milo ....

it has been a week since exams over...finally i get 2 clean up all my notes & books and sold out as my extra pocket money...lol. kind of a weird feeling between my schooling days and now which once i wish i could sleep 5 minutes more every morning on schooling days or skip class ...but now it seems like i am missing my schooling days although i had not much memory...i just dont know how to put it in words to express the feeling i am having but one thing for sure is life seems tougher as you grow...all i have now is time to enjoy my long break...so plz comment abit if you guys have any idea...haha...oh ya...sorry for late updates because seriously i spend long hours to write a post because of my " bahasa problem ".so it takes alot of effort to write one...hehe..

Had a day trip to pangkor today for a survey for next year church camp...not much info to share at this moment because it was a rushing trip...travelling from one resort to another to check those price and places which is suitable to carry out activities..will be going down again next week with a bunch of youth group to do some video shooting as part of our preparation...

Two years of serving in this youth ministry had been a great...amazing...& superb experience to me... i may not admit that i know much about christianity or own a good characther which a christian should have...sometimes i just felt that it sounds like a curiculum or club activity where i have to attend meeting and events...it might be a wrong concept to others but that is how i started as a new christian till today...being a normal member joining weekly meeting, hanging out for suppers until i became a part of the ministry...if you were to ask me how? and why? i seriously dont have an exact answer...lol.

Or maybe this would be the answer...hanging out with a bunch of friends gathering every weekend for praise&worship with some activities going on and hanging out for supper till late night where you feel your time is being fulfill so that you get to learn something on that day...going camps & mixing around with new friends.

I am not making up stories or having a sermon session but just felt like posting it to share among those who are interested...i had this kind of thought when i was first a new christian without looking at a bigger picture until i started serving. didn't thought much about the purpose of gatherings , events , camps , fun time that is important for a church... looking back the road i went through by joining all these little activities until i truely met HIM and life started to change...what i mean here is these little activities carry out by HIS people(christians)around the world from generation to another had been an impact to the world today...make it easier, our duty as a christian is to share HIS light & word to others.

So....Don't stop, keep on moving till we meet HIM one day...as a part of the ministry...let me leak out some of the plans & vision for 2008...lol.our vision for next year will be building serventhood among youth and our mission will be touching lives,meeting needs,& winning souls!!!! cant wait for the year 2008!!! too bad i need to be away for 3 months ...sigh!!

looking forward for next year camp 2008... update you guys soon...nite ...have a nice day!!!

10 Days to go ...

wow...should i say i had a busy week or am i making myself to look like a busy man ... 10days to go for my my final year exam(STPM)...just to have a review 1 1/2 years back when i decided to study form 6...it was actually a sudden decision i had made because i was still dreaming of being a pilot!!!begin with a full of passion n desire on studies on my first day of school as i still remember ... as days gone by...sun set and moon rise...rain fall and river flow...my dream of being a pilot started to fade of...schooling life seems to be so so so meaningless and no heading after months of studies and getting such results... for a "not-dicipline","lazy",and "No-direction" of me felt a burden to carry on since it was not my interest ...and thats how i made it through the 1 1/2 years ... spending time with church members and friends to fullfil my time ..having faith in God that he has put me in such situation so that i would learn something throughout this 1 1/2 years ... yeah... tho i was abit sad(lol) ... but sumhow its good to stay in my hometown for these years atleast i still get 2 serve HIM and experience things which i had no seen before whn i was still in the days of(small kids)...sumhow sumwhere lately i had a feeling of leaving ipoh soon...question such a where am i heading? what i'll be doing? How am i going to survive? what is my next step ? All of a sudden i see stars hanging around my head... it means i am again worrying of my future ... i wonder will this be a common question asked among my age...how great it could be when i was a kid ... those were the days where at the end of the year school break i will be dreaming of holidays and trip to go or waiting for great television show on TV ... people out there.. feel free to drop your comment or life experience u guys had gone through for me ya ... for those who are going through the same feeling i am having ...haha...my answer will be(ASK GOD & PRAY FOR IT)..that will be the best answer i can give u so far...last but not least for tonight ... for those who will be taking SPM & STPM ... best of luck and give ur best to end the race ya...

have a nice day!!!

school holiday preview...

first and for most i wanna apologize for being lazy 2 update my blog even i was having free time esp holidays...lol... i admit i wasn't any busy but it just seems that i find hardly free to seat infront of my screen to think of words to present my post...so basically i hada wonderful weekend throughout the whole week...i couldn't get 2 refresh much on monday to sunday...but more or less i have alot of pictures to post over here...hehe...had a wonderful steamboat nite with fellow church member(history makers)...











more updates soon due to insufficient picz...lol

There's always tomorrow for dreams to come true...

Midnight has always been the best for me to quiet down myself and to have a moment of review after a long day hanging out...there are time when u felt happy after fulfiling what you have been doing but yet there are time u felt a little depress of what u have done...i believe everyone had always dreamed about doing this and that,being this and that,achieving this and that and so on...and of course myself had plenty of dreams listed in mind to achieve...but sad to say sometimes that i myself don't really know what i am doing at the moment.

It is always true for people to say that when a person have a dream,it will be the direction of their life...life will be more meaningful...make sence...but are we actually making a right dream? i may not know what i am writing here is true or fake or maybe just some bullshit post to update my blog. But to me... what i think about dreams is something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence that one day might be a reality or remains a dream for lifetime...take it for example 1000years ago my dream was to keep all my document and record or clicking few buttons to get all sorts of information around the world in a systematically way but people around me might just think that i am mentally problem or taking this dream into my coffin...

But yet this unreal beauty,charm and excellence dream has been a reality today if i am still living on this earth after 1000years later...what i actually mean by this example is are we actually dreaming of dreams that is gonna be taken into coffin ? or are we dreaming of dreams that one day might be a reality ?

xxx: Of course dreams that will be a reality la...

that will be the most common answer given i believe...i've been always dreaming of getting a 2nd hand car by the age of 20 since last year that consider impossible to me for this moment as my current financial support doesn't allow me to do so...yeah...this dream may be just a simple task for many other on this earth but to me its just like the example i mention above...and this dream either will be a reality or remain as a dream in a year time...i have always been a person who loves to compete , ambitious and have plans that is way beyond my strength...but one thing that keeps me carrying on this kind of attitude is because sometimes to catch your dream you gotta dream big...

And out of this lil story for today i want to conclude by saying that no matter how big or small your dreams can be OR how far your dreams will come true... one thing to bear in mind that is you gotta work out for your dreams...it might not be a reality today or tomorrow or years later...As long as there's always tomorrow for dreams to come true... that will be enough for you to keep on dreaming....

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin' clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life'ss in books' written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you


Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Dream On, Dream On, Dream On,
Dream until your dream come true
Dream On, Dream On, Dream On,
Dream until your dream come true
Dream On, Dream On, Dream On,
Dream On, Dream On, Dream On,
Dream On, Dream On, Ooooh


Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Today is another day....

As i look through life where every damm early in the morning i had to wake up from my bed & spend almost half of the day in school doing things which is not my interest esp i had hours of sleep the nite before..It always come to a point where i really wanted to give up but yet the future i'm worrying about that keep me going on ...

I just got this from a friend of mine.We kind of made an exchange yesterday,I borrowed him my springy(the thing i name it)and got this dumbell weight 10KG.

This picz was taken on 29/9?2007..(will be examine in two weeks time)..lol.

Instead of just keep on mumbling on stuff i am not interested.Why don't i find things which can satisfy me for the moment...But...What? How? ...pening le...awaiting for the year 2008.Atleast i know i can do something which i wish to do but yet worrying again whether life will be better of tougher...thats all for now...gotta prepare message & activity for HM later...kinda sneak out 2 update blog...hehe...feel free to drop your comment dear readers...

Late Updates...

That nite i was fully inspired to update some of my story over here but yet i slept off right after i came home.Here are some of my picz taken during friday ,saturday n sunday...

picz by tim ... i was telling him that my dad's car(white one) was longer in size...lol.

i took jeremy's ice cream and was caught in camera...*note(dont steal people's ice cream in public )..see the guy beside me .. so desperate for it ... haha.

me and david ...realized how cool with a pink cap...planning 2 get one soon..lol

having our supper at "mamamia"...kinda boring coz those girls was enjoyin with their laptop...so we had 2 take some picz instead 2 keep ourself bz...

here comes the pretty women(timothy lim ) and the handsome guy(sze tat) .. haha... taken during YF meeting...

Its all over and next is STPM !!! yeah...

kinda of feel lik udatin but gotta yum cha later so tonight nly will seat n spend time over here ...

One Down Three To Go !!!!

This mornin woke up late because last nite talked on the phone with my **** .thankz to the hotlink super saver package... buy 2buckz n chat for unlimited calls ... lol ... was late for assembly but thank God i get 2 made up sum story to those prefect n was allow 2 enter .. hehe.. smart ass i call tht !!! sat for my trial MUET paper n guess wut it came out for the essay ??

"Some malaysians are of the opinion that women's manner of dressing contributes to sexual crimes committed against women..Do you agree??

From my point of view ..i guess it is all the choice u have in your hand . wanting to dress over expose or itchy guys is your choice !!! It is a very flawed logic that people are blaming the crimes against women on their dressing and such. The real problem is the mindset of guys . Why? Because it is the mind of the person that makes the person perceive something as tempting or otherwise. If one has a pure mind, one will not find it tempting, and if one has a dirty mind, one will find it tempting and arousing. so my conclusion is ........... u decide ...


After school ... went 2 state lib to do abit of revision for my upcoming papers ( atleast i got some excuse even score badly ) lol....hmm... i guess thats all for today ... not gonna online tonite !!! study study !!! BORINGgggggg......


nice song to relax on ...
"Only God Knows Why" Kid Rock
I've been sittin here
Tryin to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself
Lookin for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me
And now I feel like number one
Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son
And it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills still I feel the same
Everybody knows my name
They say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck me
It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay
To be some big shot like I am
Outskirt stands and one night stands
Still I can't find love
And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around
And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around
People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone....I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin
I've been walking down that line
So I think I'll keep on walking
With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why
Only God.....only God
Only God knows why
Only God....knows....why why why only God knows why
Take me to the river's...edge
Take me to the river...hey hey hey

Kid Rock - Only God Knows Why

Working hard to set up a blog

It took me quite sometime to set up all i need in a blog ...finally get 2 post the first one...kinda bit weird cause it sounds lik talking to myself on a screen .. lol.. but anyhow i find it interesting having one ... atleast i could keep track on what have i done ... mayb it'll sound crappy 2 u guys who are reading this first one but for a beginner of course i am forgiven rite ?? haha ... thats all for today...